Something you should know about me, I am a chronic over sleeper. Like it's a real problem for me. I am late all of the time. I am working on it, but it is definitely a work in progress. I am a work in progress. People often tell me things start before they actually do in an effort to combat this, and sometimes I am still late even with the false start time. I say all of this to show that I am really really excellent at rest. It's a gift and I take my responsibility to use my "gift" very seriously. What I am terrible at is holy rest. Sabbath. To be still.
Be Still....two little words with such big meaning. Two little words...that I have been seeing everywhere. In many different ways I have encountered these two little words or I have encountered books, podcasts, and posts that carry the same theme. Themes such as be still, rest, Sabbath, and other such similar topics. After a certain amount of times, I started to think to myself, perhaps I am supposed to be learning something here. *sometimes it takes me awhile to get the message
One of the ways that be still came up was in my bible study and bible reading. I am doing the rhythm and grace study from Amen Paper Company and Psalms 46:10 was one of the verses.
"Be Still, and know that I am God"
....seems pretty self explanatory to me, but oh how difficult it is to get this right in practice. I mean what does it even mean to Be Still?
To figure out what this meant for me and my current walk, it took a bit more reading *and a few more reminders from God*
I was listening to several podcasts a few days ago while I was sewing, one from Annie Downs and the other from Jess Connolly, both of them mentioned the ideas of Sabbath and a holy rest. This is something that I personally am terrible at. With anxiety, it is hard to shut myself down and to just be. I am pretty terrible at it actually. I don't mean just sitting around doing mindless instagram scrolling, I am great at that. I am talking about sitting there and just being with Jesus. Hearing what He has to say. I am fantastic at rest, it's the holy rest I need to work on. So I decided to look into it, and try actually practicing a soul rest.
I am going to be working on what a soul rest actually looks like for me, and what the Bible says about it. I am looking forward to delving into a holy rest, and growing even deeper in love with Jesus.
